[Nala is silent for a long moment, her gaze still watchful before the tension eases briefly.
Anaxagoras did not want to hurt her. It was okay.]
...it is not the first time I've had a mob descend upon me, accusing me of things I have not done simply because the nature of what I am. Hearing those accusations, seeing everyone turn...was terrifying.
[ Anaxagoras listens to her tell of worries - of about her own situation where she faced such previous ostracization in grand amounts. ]
...I can see how it would've been. Admittedly, I even understand what that's like.
[ It's part of why he stopped to think before necessarily charging at Nala, other than being in actuality not believing it was her involved. It was not a simple matter, but it is the truth. ]
Although, my own situation was based upon the fact the mob did not like my line of thought contrary to their pre-conceived notions.
As such, some would have fancied themselves to be rid of someone who would oppose the natural order of the world as well - as they knew it.
[ He looks thoughtful, though appropriately solemn as well, despite his tone. He's just a relatively stoic man at times, even if he can be certainly expressive. ]
I assume your situation regarding that mob was based upon what you told myself before, with your sister, and what came of those consequences?
[ Nala doesn't trust herself to speak for a moment and just nods, silent.]
...they executed her, and just like that she went from being a shining star to a black stain on history that had to be erased at all costs. I watched the bullet go into her head, the hands ripping jewellery off her still warm body. It didn't take long for them to come for me.
[ She counts every lonely year in her head]
I didn't have peace for decades. No matter where I ran, someone was ready to kill me or capture me... because I was a demon and evil at heart.
[ That's what every hunter said to her, as if the bounty on her head didn't make her more of a tempting target]
I couldn't handle being in that situation again. No, I'd rather become what they believe of me than die the way my sister did.
That kind of condemnation lives within someone's soul for the rest of their days; even if they soldier through it, even if they don't let it hold them down, their reaction to such memories kindles it all over again.
As if it were the very day happening once over and again without having ended. ]
And no one listened to you despite your pleas.
[ Personally, he doesn't believe people think of Nala as evil at heart, but the overlap is far too easy to make, when she was. It likely feels no different now. ]
I won't speak for everyone else here. However, there are those who do clearly believe in you. Bear that in mind, because you don't need to be anything else other than who you are.
The tension that had reached a feverish panic in her chest eases a little. She had always been living with fear wrapped around her throat. She did not need the herbivorous fears. It had always been there, latent, waiting for another opportunity to drown her in a tidal wave]
And if that is not good enough? That I become condemned despite everything?
[Not that she wants the opposing answer either; to condemn Ramuda because no matter how hard she denied it then and now...]
[ Anaxagoras isn't entirely certain how his words would go over but he certainly isn't the type of man to shy away from saying them.
But, he does anticipate the question asked of him next, even if the words don't immediately fall in reply. ]
...As much as I'd like to say there is guarantee you won't, even that's possible.
Though, I do believe Ramuda has a higher chance of becoming condemned. [ ... ] However, if you are, then all we can do is fight whatever would try to potentially unmake you.
It'd be unreasonable to simply stand by and do nothing.
[Ehehe. Nala finally smiles, the tension not easing. She doesn't want Ramuda to die either, even though she knew the truth deep in her heart. Despite her own denials and desperation to justify how things may have come about...]
...you know, you're really sounding like ones of those heroes on radio Old Quiteria used to listen to.
[ Anaxagoras does not immediately jump to rebuff the statement about sounding like a hero, per say. Though he'd certainly argue that he doesn't see himself as one, necessarily.
He does say the following: ]
Consider it just myself simply acting reasonable.
[ Yeah, he says shit like this, but visited the families of the deceased back home from the Grove, so who is he kidding... ]
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Date: 2025-11-24 05:07 pm (UTC)Is it because it was what we had seen before?
[ With Giyuu, with Yuki...or...well, Anaxagoras hasn't exactly forgotten what transpired over in the trial.
It bears questioning, from his opinion. To the point that he throws out inquiries on both ends, noticing the way she looks so very wary. ]
Or...what happened in the trial?
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Date: 2025-11-24 11:09 pm (UTC)Anaxagoras did not want to hurt her. It was okay.]
...it is not the first time I've had a mob descend upon me, accusing me of things I have not done simply because the nature of what I am. Hearing those accusations, seeing everyone turn...was terrifying.
[ even that much is difficult to say]
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Date: 2025-11-25 01:51 am (UTC)...I can see how it would've been. Admittedly, I even understand what that's like.
[ It's part of why he stopped to think before necessarily charging at Nala, other than being in actuality not believing it was her involved. It was not a simple matter, but it is the truth. ]
Although, my own situation was based upon the fact the mob did not like my line of thought contrary to their pre-conceived notions.
As such, some would have fancied themselves to be rid of someone who would oppose the natural order of the world as well - as they knew it.
[ He looks thoughtful, though appropriately solemn as well, despite his tone. He's just a relatively stoic man at times, even if he can be certainly expressive. ]
I assume your situation regarding that mob was based upon what you told myself before, with your sister, and what came of those consequences?
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Date: 2025-11-25 07:23 am (UTC)...they executed her, and just like that she went from being a shining star to a black stain on history that had to be erased at all costs. I watched the bullet go into her head, the hands ripping jewellery off her still warm body. It didn't take long for them to come for me.
[ She counts every lonely year in her head]
I didn't have peace for decades. No matter where I ran, someone was ready to kill me or capture me... because I was a demon and evil at heart.
[ That's what every hunter said to her, as if the bounty on her head didn't make her more of a tempting target]
I couldn't handle being in that situation again. No, I'd rather become what they believe of me than die the way my sister did.
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Date: 2025-11-25 04:54 pm (UTC)That kind of condemnation lives within someone's soul for the rest of their days; even if they soldier through it, even if they don't let it hold them down, their reaction to such memories kindles it all over again.
As if it were the very day happening once over and again without having ended. ]
And no one listened to you despite your pleas.
[ Personally, he doesn't believe people think of Nala as evil at heart, but the overlap is far too easy to make, when she was. It likely feels no different now. ]
I won't speak for everyone else here. However, there are those who do clearly believe in you. Bear that in mind, because you don't need to be anything else other than who you are.
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Date: 2025-11-26 10:42 am (UTC)The tension that had reached a feverish panic in her chest eases a little. She had always been living with fear wrapped around her throat. She did not need the herbivorous fears. It had always been there, latent, waiting for another opportunity to drown her in a tidal wave]
And if that is not good enough? That I become condemned despite everything?
[Not that she wants the opposing answer either; to condemn Ramuda because no matter how hard she denied it then and now...]
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Date: 2025-11-26 10:17 pm (UTC)But, he does anticipate the question asked of him next, even if the words don't immediately fall in reply. ]
...As much as I'd like to say there is guarantee you won't, even that's possible.
Though, I do believe Ramuda has a higher chance of becoming condemned. [ ... ] However, if you are, then all we can do is fight whatever would try to potentially unmake you.
It'd be unreasonable to simply stand by and do nothing.
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Date: 2025-11-27 09:38 am (UTC)...you know, you're really sounding like ones of those heroes on radio Old Quiteria used to listen to.
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Date: 2025-11-27 05:12 pm (UTC)He does say the following: ]
Consider it just myself simply acting reasonable.
[ Yeah, he says shit like this, but visited the families of the deceased back home from the Grove, so who is he kidding... ]
...Who is Old Quiteria?
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Date: 2025-11-28 05:40 am (UTC)